Hard times and falling off the alkaline wagon...
I recently said goodbye to my dog of 11 years. He made his transition and if you remember my very first blog, he had his share of suffering, so it was time. I am reminded by friends and family that I gave him a few extra good years when I started to cook for him and let food heal most of his ailments. Max taught me so much about healing, he still is, only this time it’s more emotional than physical.
So as you could imagine I’ve been off the wagon of my alkaline diet due to emotional eating and just plain old depression. I’ve been so lonely and sad coming home to an empty apartment that I’m eating all sorts of carbs including everything from white flour to sweets of all kinds and lots of alcohol. Ok, so maybe the alcohol part isn’t that new, but I’m definitely off the alkaline wagon! What do you do when you feel a loss of desire to stay on the path? I cant really answer that right now, but I’m guessing that it has something to do with time healing wounds. I guess this is exactly what people mean when they say life gets in the way. Max passing is definitely a part of life that is getting in my way emotionally, mentally and physically. I don’t care about my stupid Psoriasis right now! Let me vent for a second because I know you will all relate to what I’m about to say. I wish my skin would just cooperate and leave me be to eat and drink whatever the hell I want! LEAVE ME ALONE P! Okay, I feel a little better:) I know in time this dark, sad feeling will lift and I will care again, so I’m not too concerned. I know that goes pretty much with everything in life right? It feels hard, but whatever it is always lifts in time doesn’t it? It always has in my experience, even the weight of shame about my skin! So I know it’s just a matter of time and in the meantime I’m going to eat and drink whatever my little broken hearts desires.
My point is that life will get in the way and that’s okay!
It’s okay…
Sorry this is so short, I promise next month’s entry will be longer and happier:)